Monday, October 25, 2010
This was supposed to post last night! Oh well since I'm at a loss for words and recovering from a terrible xanex headach here goes
I'm sitting here trying to read blogs and answer comments on mine. I simply can't do it.
I was cooking dinner when a panic attack began to rear it's ugly head. It's been around 2 years since I last had a full blown panic attack. I have anxiety all the time, but panic attacks are rare luckily.
The attacks pretty much go hand in hand with bipolar but I've been able make it through some time without one. Tonight we got some news that pretty much rocked my world. We'll come through it somehow, not sure how at the moment, but we will come through it.
If you've never had a panic attack you're one very lucky individual. They make me feel like I'm dying. I can't breathe, my heart races, my chest hurts and the surroundings begin closing in. It's like being in a fun house without the fun.
So I left the dinner table, downed some medication and curled up on my bed until it began to wane. After it slowed I thought it would be soothing to try to read. Well, ativan, a double dose of xanex and reading don't go hand in hand.
So tonight I'm sleeping. It's 7:30 and I'm out for the night. I guess I'll schedule this to post late tonight since I've already posted once today. As for typos, grammar, spelling and all that shit...forgetta 'bout it, I am.