Wednesday, December 28, 2011
My daughter's condition has weighed heavily on me today. Maybe it's the reason I've taken so much valium today. I usually only take it at night to help with sleep, but I'm on my fourth for the day.
My husband and I decided, on a friend's advice, to watch "A Beautiful Mind," again. Wow. I see my daughter with her hallucinations and realized that she very well may have to live with them. In John Nash's fear I saw her fear. In his reality I saw her reality. Her hallucinations may have to become part of her "normal."
I hope not, but if so, I hope she can deal with them the way John Nash learned to over time.
I don't know what else to say tonight. I'm drained. I have a headache and I need another valium.
I'll try harder tomorrow. Good night all.