Tuesday, May 15, 2012
The feelings are overwhelming today, the sensations engulfing. I don’t know where to turn or who to trust.
I feel words of attack are being shot like arrows and they pierce the inner most core of my being. I’m not sure why a small dispute can cause me to spiral out of control sending me into the pits of hell.
All I want is to disappear, to vanish from this reality. Or is it reality? Why is it so difficult to just be?
I want to run and hide from the world. I want a quiet, dark room where no one can reach me, where no one can enter the cocoon I want to spin and crave to live in.
I don’t want the physical sensation of another human’s touch on my skin. I want no contact at all. I just want to be. I just want to be left alone. I don’t want to hear another voice. All I want is quiet and solitude.